Ok so last week I forgot… but not this week, no this week I am ready for my Five minute Friday (if you want more info you can read all about it here, or you can read my first one here)… Today’s prompt is weak… and I have 5 minutes to write about it… no guidelines, no pressure (other than the clock…) but just a reason to post something.
Weak is a word, a label and a feeling that makes me uncomfortable, it is something that I am always avoiding… I never want to look weak, unless of course I am playing the role of damsel in distress, in which case it is totally ok to look, well act, weak.
Weakness is vulnerability, out of control and frightening. Weakness is seen to be less, damaged, unwanted, broken.
Weakness is not good enough.
Weak is something that I have learnt to embrace, to be ok with, to use as a guide for what happens next. Over the last couple of months I have been weak, and I have felt all of the things that I listed above… but in my weakness I have found strength, hope and grace. I have found love and support and I have found ‘ok’.
When I try to be strong all of the time I inevitably fail, I can not do life in my own strength. Until now I never really understood the verse in 2 Corinthians 12:10 that says “for when I am weak, then I am strong”. But now I know… I can hold on because He is strong, I can live in hope because He is in control, and I can pour out my love and my pain because His grace and love are more than sufficient.
So while I am getting used to the idea that I am not as strong as I thought I was, I am learning.. I can be strong and courageous, in fact, I am actually the strongest, because He is my God, and I am with Him.